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day 1 without mom at home / Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 6:43:00 PM
Day 1: I sort of managed to wakeup by myself. My alarm rang (Now my alarm ringtone is a rooster sound. Annoying enough to wake me up.), I heard and my Mom haven't left home at that time so she woke me up. I was surprised that she still made a cup of milo for me. I mean, although she woke up early but I thought she would be busy preparing. (Okay wth I don't know why I suddenly feel like crying. BUT I WON'T.) So I was showering and she told me that she was gonna leave already and all I said was "Mmm." I should have said something better. Also at that time I felt like crying but I held back my tears. I opened the gate and locked the gate by myself. I've never had my Mom not with me for more than 24 hours.
Day 1: I sort of managed to wakeup by myself. My alarm rang (Now my alarm ringtone is a rooster sound. Annoying enough to wake me up.), I heard and my Mom haven't left home at that time so she woke me up. I was surprised that she still made a cup of milo for me. I mean, although she woke up early but I thought she would be busy preparing. (Okay wth I don't know why I suddenly feel like crying. BUT I WON'T.) So I was showering and she told me that she was gonna leave already and all I said was "Mmm." I should have said something better. Also at that time I felt like crying but I held back my tears. I opened the gate and locked the gate by myself. I've never had my Mom not with me for more than 24 hours.
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I'm pretty troubled these days. Troubled over my exams. It officially starts in Week 5 and I'm still slacking around. I really get stressed up when I can't even solve a maths question. Recently we just learnt a new topic in Science - Electricity. I'm finding it difficult and I just feel so disappointed in myself when I just don't get anything she teaches. I'm worried about my results. I'm not going to let myself score worser than my MYEs. My aim is just to at least maintain. I've got to work hard.
A despo won't admit that he/she is a despo.
